For a big part of my life, I did not know who I was. I experienced domestic abuse which led to me trying to take my own life. I was very fortunate because my son called the ambulance just in time.
After recovering from my suicide attempt and with the help of the police I walked away from an abusive relationship. My partner at the time was very controlling - he, emotionally and physically violated and abused me for a long time. My biggest regret was not being able to say goodbye to my children.
I was diagnosed with PTSD and lived in a hostel for 10 months. There I got the support I needed from them before moving into my own place.
My recovery journey began when I was first referred to the Pod by my Care Coordinator and later referred to Tess.
The first time I walked through the Pod’s front doors I was warmly welcomed by Linda and felt for the first time in years like a human being. The staff were very friendly and easy to talk to. I felt listened to, believed and not judged.
Instead, I was encouraged to try out things, received and took on board offered opinions and not forced to accept or commit myself to them if I did not want to. For me, this was a new way of being.
Due to this style of engagement and patience, I’ve managed to achieve, attend and participated in gym activities at Pure Gym. I walked to Brandon Wood with a group of people. Increased my self-esteem and confidence. I have been successful in interviews and secured a part-time job as a cleaner
For me, the Pod was like two big arms embracing me, and I felt really comfortable and safe being there.
I am in a different place now and for the first time in over thirty years I am able to make my own decisions, chose my own friends and to socialise freely. For example, I am having a day out in London and booked a holiday abroad with friends. This is the happiest I’ve felt in a very long time.
I still feel scared of running into my ex-partner and meeting up with my children. I continue to have counselling and I am preparing for an interview with the help of Tess for a similar job.